Today’s deck is the Lubanko Tarot.
Pleasantly surprised by this one. The tactile feel, the flexibility of the cards, the designs, the backs… pretty great on the whole.
Today’s reading reminds that it’s normal to not feel the creativity flow when things are hectic, so to not feel guilty about it.
Okay so I’m not crazy, coffee does make me sleep better.
Yesterday I forgot to drink any coffee at all and not only was trying to sleep an exercise in futility, but also I woke up with a level of “my brain didn’t shut off enough” that was palpable.
It’s hilarious that coffee is something I drink to sleep better rather than to wake up more.
The activation code thingy for the new bank account arrived yesterday but for once I pushed myself to do the thing I want instead of letting the focus on some pending paperwork consume the rest of my day.
Card should be arriving next week, dear God sure hope so.
I went to bed yesterday without posting the pics I had onto instagram, and as I often do I made quick comparisons with other pics from the same girl.
In this Luna one you can see how the same pose as in Sakura season came out more dynamic. You can also see how her hair going through the wash changes the way light reflects on it and just the general vibe of it.
Meanwhile, in this Sol one…
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…son of a bitch, no wonder it was so hard, she had the wrong eye covered.
And I need you to understand that she’s always, ALWAYS had her left eye covered. You can see her gallery in this very blog and notice that.
No shit something felt off. Three years of muscle memory on what the best angles are with her were briefly out the window!
Still, aside from that, notice how the hair falls on the sakura one vs the latest one.
I spent the rest of my day catching up to the blog, I was two days behind. I usually write the day’s post as the day goes along, mainly by leaving small reminders in a draft and then by the end of the day or the start of the next one I flesh things out.
While I was going at it, the idle thought came to mind of “why do you do this?” “it’s not like the blog’s stats go crazy anyways” “why be so dilligent in catching up to the date with something like this?”.
Now, there’s two interesting things about this train of thought. The first is that it was a very dettached thought, it wasn’t born from any pain but more of general curiosity.
And the other interesting thing is a sense of “because it’s fun”.
And it is! Even if a day is just “I did nothing and I feel terrible”, the blog post still made me vocalize that I feel terrible AND I had to do a tarot reading regardless.
This blog is like my equivalent of a morning jog but creatively. It’s an excuse to write things and publish them every day. It’s a self-imposed baseline and whenever something feels like it’s getting in the way of being able to do this it makes me reconsider how things are going.
After all, if I don’t have the time to write 200 words on how annoyed I felt at something it means I don’t have time for myself and that shit adds up.
Besides, what if the blog only has 20 hits on average per day? Do I really want 1000+ people on the daily know what horny DL Site game I played that day? No! If you’re here for more than one post it’s a self-inflicted thing and I hope you enjoy your stay.
The rest of my day wasn’t that much more eventful, to be honest. I stayed inside waiting for a package aside from a brief moment at around 3PM where I went to the office because a cair was delivered there.
Speaking of Amazon, an order with them didn’t finish arriving because it was being delivered by Amazon people and the building’s delivery box is currently out of service so I either hope to God they ring the bell while I’m here or awake or something.
You know, speaking of daily rhythms and such, I feel like the biggest indicator of how out of whack is the fact that I’ve not been able to order Warhammer books for a couple of months now. That was a weekly part of my routine I looked forwards to, but between cards failing and Everything Else, I’ve just not been able to indulge in that since like… May at least.
And it bears repeating the frustration that it’s not even a lack of the funds but the funds being made impossible to use one way or another.
But we’re almost done. We’re in the final stretch…
Oh right! One funny detail I forgot to mention yesterday. I was telling my family about the drone and stuff and my sister goes:
“How cool! Here they put you in jail for owning a drone.”
Any time nostalgia about my homeland might hit I get these fun reminders of why I felt the need to leave…