Today’s deck is the Lonely Dreamer Tarot.
Okay so this one is a pirate copy, but I gotta ask, even in the original, did nobody notice that “Pentacle” looks like it says “Tentacle” instead?
Today’s reading just reflects the exhaustion I feel with the bank stuff, with an undercurrent of processing all the bullshit.
GOD exhaustion is kicking my ass.
One problem is that, as I’ve alluded to in the past, I’m not exactly equipped to cope with inaction. My anxieties don’t leave me until I’ve done stuff, so even the idea of “I’m gonna spend all day in bed doing nothing” feels like torture.
“Just play games in bed” “Just read in bed”, the problem is that the moment I get on bed I immediately feel sleepy so I can’t really do much WHILE in bed because I immediately feel tired.
I eventually gathered enough energy so I went out for the “let’s catch some sun while it’s still out” walk. Nothing too fancy to report on that one though.
However, I did get the idea through the day that it’d be cool to do an anniversary countdown at the Uma Musume blog and I knew exactly what I wanted to do for it so I put all the ideas on a spreadsheet.
The intent is that it goes from the start of the month and God knows I have enough filler in mind I could use, but I also know some tangents devolve into whole posts, so I’m giving it time in case those crop up.
I actually got one of the drafts done, they’re not gonna be made in strict order, after all. The one that I finished was also the kind where sure I did research as usual but it didn’t require me to play the game 15 times for footage and screenshots.
It was also an idea I already had half-formed in my brain for a while.
Oh yeah I also started the first Garth Merengi book and it’s amazing. It has the same energy Dark Place has but for shlocky pulp novels instead of shlocky TV. Even got me a few out loud chuckles that prompted weird looks from people on the street.