Today’s deck is Sailor’s Arcana.
A fan-made Popeye deck of all things. Not a Popeye deck, mind you, but a Legally Distinct Sailor Man. It’s very well-made.
Today’s reading advises to listen to my heart at the time of pursuing creative endeavors. It might sound like a “no shit Sherlock” sort of thing, but it’s way too easy to get trapped in trying to Play The Trend, which I know for a fact is a fool’s errand.
The homie will return home. The homie will be back eventually, but she has a roommate and cat waiting for her.
The road to the airport wasn’t eventful aside from rain, which was a funny way to bookend the trip. Bonus points because the last day or so wasn’t eventful At All compared to the mess of last trip that I don’t wanna remember.
On my way back I was filled with the odd mix I always feel of “bummer friend is out” and “WOOOOO I’VE GOT MY FREEDOM BACK” which always leaves me thinking about the same thing.
I’ve mentioned this in the past but one of the many (many MANY) mental hangups I’ve got around getting in a romantic relationship is the fact that one of the most important things for me (be in regular life or work) is the ability of doing things at my own pace. This doesn’t automatically mean I live in an egocentrical way (very much the contrary) but I prefer to do things in my own chaotic way.
However, this time around while thinking about it I realized that I was thinking about it in the context of HOSTING someone.
Like, realistically, a romantic partner is someone that’s more independent, that becomes part of a singular unit. It’s completely different from “I have a friend coming by, I am the kind of host that likes to be a busybody about looking after them”.
Really, what it truly conveys to me is a confirmation on how badly I do NOT want to have kids.
Between meditation and Uma Musume dailies I made it back home… or rather, back to my office. A package arrived coicidentally as I was going to the airport.
A LAN Cable Tester.
I was kinda fed up with the weird situation back at the office where the PC kept refusing to recognize the Ethernet port, and since I did everything on the PC side short of installing a new motherboard, I bought the tester before I tried buying a new cable.
One reading through the manual later and oh look at that I somehow frayed TWO ethernet cables.
Graded for outdoors my ass.
The whole thing reminded of back in Venezuela, during the tail end of VA-11 Hall-A’s development, actually. I suddenly stopped having any internet so I borrowed a modem from my cousin and after working for a bit that one too stopped working.
I spent the next six months or so with no internet at home, assuming that oh well, they stole the copper from the landlines again.
I’m not joking by the way, I didn’t have broadband internet in my town for the longest time because people kept stealing the cables for copper and the phone company was tired of that bullshit.
ANYWAY, after a while the idea that maybe the other modem coincidentally also died was suggested. So I ask for another one borrowed and… I had internet again much to my relief/anger.
THEN it died again for good, but that’s a different matter entirely. Point being that buying two LAN cables and both of them fraying internally from SOMETHING I somehow did during installation is perfectly in character for me.
Anyway, I was kinda tired after that so I dissociated while playing Raccoin which came out a bit ago.