Today’s deck is the TV Series Tarot.
It’s not BAD but there’s a certain feeling of holding back with these decks that want but can’t use licensed material. Also I have a feeling (mostly from the backs) that the theme is more like “binge watching from streaming”.
Today’s reading is a comment that things will all heal up and balance out in the end. Which is fitting for today as you’ll see.
So the Weird Mental Malaise continues. Today’s flavor is “I don’t wanna leave my house”.
The weather is lovely, there’s stuff I’d like to start doing since I’ve got an empty schedule, and yet all I feel compelled to do is remain in my abode. Which is usually fine except the sensation remains strong even after I figured I gotta get groceries.
This had me worried, not so much for the hermit part but because whenever I feel like that it tends to be a sign of some deeper mental snag, some anxiety eating me.
Ironically it hits both ways, not wanting to leave the house and also leaving the house way too much.
As much as I combed over my own brain, however, I just couldn’t find a reason why I was feeling this way. So I just tried to ride it out.
Worked from home, continued the next Uma Musume post, took a nap…
I went to bed relatively early (for my chaotic sleep schedule, at least) and that’s when it finally hit me.
Oh, I’m just tired. Literally physically exhausted in general. That’s such an alien idea that it never crossed my mind and that says a lot about me, I think.