Today’s deck is the Pot Tarot.
dude weed lmao… not much opinion beyond that, though.
Today’s reading is telling me that something I’ve been hoping for is right there and I better take notice.
A couple of things come to mind about that, yeah.
For anyone following the blog in real time, I tend to write the entries on the day of, but haven’t had the time to put pics on them hence the weird batches of posts of the past couple of weeks.
Anyway, today one of the girls from the bar I’ve frequented on Fridays graduates. For those not in the know, “graduation” is the idol term for stopping activities.
It was announced a month or so in advance. And to be fair the mood was mostly festive in the place. I kinda cosider that cast member a friend so it was mostly being there on an important day, but I’ll admit it kinda got to me.
Back home my brain was kicking me in the nuts. I reassured her plenty of times that hey, I’m fine, she should spend time with everyone else. Like in a party where you don’t wanna hog the attention of the host. But my brain was kicking me like in the Jojo scene specifically because I tend to be unnecessarily self-sacrificial sometimes and it was like “you bitch you could’ve spent more time with her.”
It’s an old reflex from the time rebuilding my sense of self. One of those days where I just take my brain aside and go “sweetie you’re absolutely right but the context is wrong today”.
Besides, I got to chat with one of the newer cast members. We ended up doing this thing where she started naming prefectures and I went “I went there” “I wanna go there” “I don’t know what’s there”.
In the end, it just felt nice to be there in an important day.