Today’s deck is the Reverse Scale Tarot.
The gimmick of this one is that elements in the cards have changed scale, so the Hermit is smaller than his lantern, The Fool is smaller than his dog and so on.
To be honest, the theme is a bit… weak. Not knocking on the quality of the deck as a whole but compared to other decks of similar premise like Before Tarot and After Tarot, there’s some that kinda fall flat for me. The Devil being bigger than the chained humans? Yeah that’s… kinda how it always read. The clouds in Judgment being bigger? Again, that’s how it read to me before.
It’s like it didn’t want to be comical despite the fact that a small man in front of a big lantern is absurd anyways.
Also you can kinda see in the header I thought the backs were symmetrical, they were not and you can see how that looks after shuffling.
Today’s reading is very evocative, creation from hope and destruction. Rather than advice or vibe check, it feels fittingly evocative for today.
So without getting too deep into it (in part because I’m honestly in a different mood), you all remember that one ex-friend I always bring up? The only one I call “ex-friend”? So we stopped talking in January 10th 2021 (yes, for those keeping tabs, I still talked to them after they made me so miserable in new year’s I barely ate for a week), long story short they went to other friends and effectively shared some of my less stable messages over time (not my proudest moment, but honestly it lacked a lot of context and was ultimately just me in a very desperate state of mind) so C advised me to cut all contact immediately, which I did.
I was REALLY miserable for a couple of days but then on the 13th, E (same E from early in the blog’s life if any read that) gave me The Talk of my life where they drilled into my head that I was better than the pathetic man she saw in that moment and that moreover she wouldn’t be talking my ear out if she didn’t believe that.
I haven’t forgotten that moment, I make sure to thank E every year at around this time for setting me up on this path where I fixed myself.
I’ll cap the topic (for now at least, it always finds a way to resurface) by pointing out that I take, and in fact TOOK, full responsability for myself even before that blowout. “You should stop talking about explicit stuff because I’m no longer comfortable talking about it” I stopped bringing up those topics (despite the fact that the other side was the one originally breaching the topic by the way), “You really need to get therapy” I got a therapist right then and there (they didn’t bring the topic up this nicely by the byt), “You should see a psychiatrist” I got diagnosed and then medicated for ADHD (and had to pay three years of unpaid insurance to get my insurance card but that’s on me).
If I ever sound more angry than repenting on the matter is that not only did I take responsability for myself at every turn, I took way too much responsability for things I shouldn’t have while others didn’t move a finger to take responsability for themselves in the same timeframe. All the while being treated like I was clinically insane or something.
Hell, if I was, that only makes the lack of similar accountability on the other side all the more damning methinks.
I will never deny my own instability in that period, but I refuse to be painted as something that I know for a fact after rebuilding myself piece by piece that I am not.
And some fuckers think they’re being hilarious by asking what I’ve been doing since I finished VA-11 Hall-A… this isn’t even the only thing on that list.
So anyways, today I spent the whole day opening card packs and remember that card right above, I’ll get back to it in a moment.
I still had some leftover boxes of the Uma Musume Door To A New Era box set from Weiss Schwarz, I had a full playset (four copies of each card) and was only missing a few parallels. I got the rest of the regular parallels with the other boxes but by the end I was missing two signed cards. Thankfully they weren’t BT-01 Omegamon expensive.
One of the reasons I don’t go full into Vtubers is that dear God their signed Weiss Schwarz cards are way too much even for me.
Anyway, after I finished those I started opening boxes for the Shadowverse Evolve Uma Musume Extra pack.
So for those that don’t know, Shadowverse Evolve is the paper form of the digital card game, and it has different rules than it that I’m not gonna get into here but know that you have a main deck and an evolve deck (if anyone knows Wixoss it’s like the Lrig deck).
There was already a different Uma Musume expansion for Shadoba and one interesting thing is that it had a “carrot” mechanic, where instead of the usual evolve cards you can fill your deck with carrot cards to activate specific effects. In the main expansion there were literal carrot cards.
So they released an Extra Booster, these are common in Japan (can’t say about the rest of the world tho) where they make shinier or stronger cards but in smaller packs with smaller boxes, though with smaller expansions as a whole too.
The card you see up there is what they did to make Carrot cards different this time around, they modeled them after Event CGs and support cards that include carrots so I decided “this is neat, I’m gonna keep a full playset (3 copies) of each”.
And that specific Special Week card escaped me for so long opening packs.
I got a full playset of the rest, I got a copy of every foil alt, I got TEN signed cards and three dupes, I GOT A FULL SET OF THREE OF THE FOIL ART OF THAT SPECIFIC SPECIAL WEEK CARROT CARD AND I STILL HADN’T FOUND A THIRD COPY OF THE REGULAR VERSION.
It wasn’t even a short print, I just got really weird luck.
Eventually I got it and by then my wrists were killing me, specifically the part of the wrist that connects to the thumb.
It might not be carpal tunnel but repeated action injury ain’t no joke, so I stopped for the day. The day was stopping at around that time for me anyways.