I was on the dentist, for one.
Today’s deck is a Tarot de Marseille. I’ve said before how nostalgic this one is for me. The mat also has Kantoku art, which is an artist I really like.
For today’s reading: Reverse knight of pentacles glances at The Magician who glances at The Temperance.
“You’re feeling stuck or held back because there’s a talent you’re ignoring, throwing you out of balance.”
Not necessarily “talent you’re not aware of” but “talent you’re not using”. And considering I was feeling like I needed to go back to singing lessons… yeah.
I read today’s lesson on the train to the dentist, it was about how to learn the meaning of the cards organically, it basically discouraged rote learning and more intuitive learning with the help of keywords while encouraging making your own set of keywords.
The wording of the book kinda makes it sound like the activity is to make it all at once, but I assume it’s more like… part of the process.
As the day started I sent documents for the current Visa shenanigans. So now we wait.
Anyway, as I said, today I had a dentist appointment, just a regular trimestral check up and cleaning. Honestly, the whole process would be completely relaxing were it not for the fact that I get shamed about drinking so much sugary tea.
Usually I’d be like “well, sugary drinks are one of the small joys I have while working” but I SHOULD be controlling my sugar intake. I don’t have high blood sugar but I have… sugar on the higher edge of the ideal range and I’m not getting any younger.
Every time I go to the dentist I feel like it would be nice to go get manicure or a head/foot spa, one of those things where you just lay while you get maintenence done.
I tend to do things after writing them down like this, so who knows.
I was HUNGRY after the dentist appointment (as seems to be usual) and I went to McDonald’s to have a Tsukimi Burger, I was feeling like having burgers and this was the one that was closest and fastest in that moment.
I like the Tsukimi burger because egg, but also because it’s the one item in their menu where I don’t have to request no cheese, because the cheese variant is a… variant.
I checked a couple of bookshops, one was Junkudo in Shinsaibashi and the other ws Maruzen near Nakatsu.
Turns out Maruzen had a Cool Rocks Exhibit and while I was excited to find an orb of “Sakura Agate” and petrified wood, I was even more excited to find an Ammonite!
I’m not a dinosaur person (I’m the opposite of a dinosaur person, if anything) but Ammonites and fossils have always fascinated me, but that feels more rocks-adjacent than dinosaurs-adjacent to me.
I came back home and aside from a couple of Peglin sessions, I tried out this game called “NTR – Hyponsis Master”.
It was very basic and short. In fact there’s weird elements like how the girls have an affection meter that goes to 100 but none of them require you to get to 20 to get to the end, or how there’s a toy gun that you just don’t use anywhere.
You know, I’m actually not that into NTR. I don’t have the same aggressive hate I see others (particularly guys) show for it and this one game doesn’t even emphasize it that much. It’s just popular and there’s this thing in the DLsite sphere where most of the time you either get NTR or Maso guy content so…
Back to the title and jokes aside, I can’t really remember where I was. Closest memory I can conjure up from that period was me playing in the backyard and my dad talking about the Taliban, but all I could think was “What’s wrong with that something-or-other (tal) Ivan guy?”.
I do remember being really affected in the subsequent years though. I especially remember one time where I worried every adult in my immediate radius when I asked why the number 11 was cursed because by then every year had something bad happen on a month’s 11th.
September 11th, Spain’s March 11th, Venezuela’s April 11th…
I feel like I come across aloof when it comes to world crises sometimes, but the truth is that the world has been on fire since I’ve had use of memory and it affected me deeply for so long growing up to the point of constant visible despair.
I wouldn’t say I’ve become jaded about it because God knows I feel that edge of despair all too often even now, but I’ve just learned to mitigate the sound to my nearest proximity.
Back to 2001 though, funnily enough my dad remembers where he was because he was in a teachers meeting and someone busted into the room literally saying “WORLD WAR 3 JUST STARTED!!!!”.
I have singing lessons for the first time in Forever this Sunday, so definitely looking forward to that.