Today’s deck is the Horror Tarot.
Unrelated to a different Horror Tarot I used ages ago… I think, that one was red.
Today’s reading advices that clarity of mind can only come from letting go of things in order to balance things out.
Heavy stuff, cards. Heavy stuff…
Thankfully there were no weird shadows when I woke up, though I’ll admit I was kinda scared when I went to sleep. The fear wasn’t even “oh no ghost” but waking up to something.
I woke up to every app that requires ID verification showing the “please update your info” request due to my Visa being in the “90 days, renew your shit bozo” period, and I’ve always found it funny because it’s like buddy even if I put in the request frame 1 that shit takes one month on average with everything going well.
Ever since I moved in I’ve delayed submitting my visa until the last minute because basically the visa starts from the day you go pick it up, so if you submit the renewal with one week left and it takes three weeks to renew then you’ve got two extra weeks of stay on the whole.
However it’s goten to the point where this isn’t as favorable for me, because you see, my medical insurance ALSO expires alongside my visa. So I’ve had moments at least two years in a row where I go pick my ADHD meds and they tell me the card is expired and they can’t give me anything.
Funnily enough, one improvement I’ve had over the years is that I’ve lost the fear of my visa not being renewed, mainly because, long story short, I think “they gave me one extra year when the company was an even bigger mess, why wouldn’t they accept it when we’re doing everything properly”.
There’s a funny recurrent conversation I’ve had where someone tells me they don’t feel qualified to apply for a visa, then I explain the nonsense I did and go “if I somehow managed to get in, believe you me, you can too”.
It’s not easy and honestly every time I hear of people that leave the country because they couldn’t stand the way things work I go “yeah, perfectly understandable”. But the point is more an underestimation of the other person’s credentials and an overestimation of mine.
The day was pretty routine otherwise, until around 8AM or so where I got hit with what I call the Dead Zone.
When I have an inverted sleep schedule I tend to have this dead zone at around 8AM or so that’s super annoying because by then I’ve been awake for a long while, but I’m not sleepy enough to go to sleep, but also I don’t have enough energy to commit to anything big and nothing will open for at elast two hours.
Then, idly remembering things I decided to start playing Stamworld Dig 2. There’s… not much I can say about it though. I love digging games (the kind where you dig down, go back up to cash in and repeat) and Stamworld Dig 1 was one of the best at it and 2 is certainly living up to it so far, it also made hyperfocus kick in so I was able to stay wide awake for longer.
I keep getting distracted by other stuff, but I should definitely get to packing up for the birthday trip in advance.