Today’s Tarot is the Yuru Tarot.
Ages ago I mentioned this one tabletop game that was about teaching Tarot and came with only the major arcana. This is basically the full version of that deck and it’s stunning. It’s one of the rare decks where it has a lot of shiny bits that don’t turn into glitter the moment you so much as think about shuffling it. Definitely adding it to rotation.
Today’s reading speaks of how freedom of choice also means taking responsability for your own actions, but the interesting part is that there’s a tint, a nuance of how the way out of that choice paralysis is to just be left in a position where you don’t have to make such choices.
This is something sometimes in my mind, particularly during stressful periods where I think about how all the responsabilities I carry from owning a business also give me a certain freedom on what to do, but that freedom also means I’m the one to blame for the mistakes if they happen.
Interesting stuff.
Today’s another day that started slow but compared to yesterday where I went “alright, let’s use the energy to go out”, this time I didn’t feel like doing much.
I did feel the itch to draw or paint so I was like “hey, let’s take the art supplies to my office, maybe I just need the mental comparmentalization”, you know, work space vs living space sort of thing.
I remembered I didn’t have any desk there yet, though, so I bought a small computer desk on the way, the kind where you have space for a laptop and not much else.
The office is one block away from the hardware store I frequent by the way, that’s how I was able to buy such a thing “on the way”.
Then something funny happened.
I go in and think… well, there’s the carpet I got ages ago might as well unroll it.
And oh right I have a chair I also got, let’s just assemble it after I finish the small PC table.
Oh right, there’s also the shelf I haven’t assembled yet.
Then little by little the space took shape and the idea of spending time here to work and do all the creative stuff didn’t sound half bad.
At this point I was slightly tired from all the assembling and whatnot, but I started sorting files with some Youtube videos in the background.
Then I started to remember things like “Let’s buy a proper desk finally”, “I should get a whiteboard” “I should buy a printer” “while at it let’s stock on paper and clear files”.
I immediately started remembering all the assorted work things I could move bit by bit from my house to here not only with a proper space for it but clearing up space at home too.
When the day ended I left the office satisfied and actively looking forward to returning and continuing all the sorting, I was even thinking like man, why didn’t I have this before?
Then I remembered, oh right, the emotional scars and mental baggage, that’s why…