Today’s deck is the Chou Chou Tarot.
It’s cute! It’s functional, shame about the backs.
Today’s reading feels like a reflection of the emotional turmoil I’ve been feeling today, specifically it feels like it’s saying “yeah it sucks, but you’ll learn from this”.
You see, my mood was already bad yesterday, but today it was squarely Hell.
It’s a bit tricky to explain, mainly because it’s not just a very personal matter but personal matters that would require filling in with context that doesn’t really come across properly to random people reading this on the internet. And even if I did, a few of circumstances aren’t actually bad and I don’t voice them because they’re matters that are, on the whole, positive; but due to years of extrenuous circumstances it ends up hurting me.
Yeah…
The one bit I can talk about, however, is the most prominent element of it all anyways. Basically my main job is meant to be Writing and Making Games, but these tasks have been impeded by the fact that I gotta do paperwork and officework that drains me mentally, leaving me in no mental space to do either thing.
You have no idea how sane this blog keeps me by giving me a reason to put words to (virtual) paper.
So anyway, for the last week or so this feeling has been exacerbated by me being tired and not having the energy to push against it which means that I wasn’t in a good mood, to say the least.
Bad mood also means low energy and I wanted to head to the beach so that plan is canned, I guess.
Thankfully venting ever so slightly about it to a couple of friends help me calm down a little and I tuned out opening digimon TCG packs (you can see some of the nicer pulls up there).
Today was also when my PS5 arrived, a purchase I made last week in a ploy to Treat Myself.
I sat down to try Monster Hunter Wilds in what’s a very long overdue play. It’s good so far! I definitely like the characters and setting more than World… I mean, you’d hope so considering it’s an iteration on it, but yeah.
It’s in moments like this that it dawns on me how long I’ve spent without being able to just sit down and play, unable to lose an entire day into putting 8+ hours into a game for fun. Last time was… Dragon’s Dogma 2, and then Elden Ring right before it. I shouldn’t be able to pinpoint shit like that, let alone on a YEARLY timeline.
By the way, E pointed out that the Charles Bronson on the ad for Yumejima I posted a couple of days looks more like Carl Sagan and… actually, yeah.