New month, let’s do the usual thing.
Mentally I’m excited for things to finally move forward, I’m looking to go for that financial balance I’ve been lacking, but at the deepest level I’m concerned with being able to provide for others without the usual rushes I’ve had.
Timeline-wise the month starts balancing things out, then some sort of charity will be paid back, and by the end it will all feel like the struggles were worth it.
On the whole it’s gonna be a month of balancing everything.
Main thing today was Evil’s bartender was doing a small live show on a different bar. I spent a lot of the day just sorting things around the house until that time came.
The bar was slightly tricky to get to. It’s in a weird block that’s more of a triangle, and it’s the second floor of a building so you get in from really narrow stairs on what’s essentially the back of the building.
That’s how you know it’s good.
The whole thing was very intimate, and I’ll admit I felt overwhelmed by the idea of “man, I was INVITED to this, huh…”.
I ordered a Rum n Coke and it was made with craft cola instead of pepsi or coke and it was amazing. It immediately reminded me of the craft cola cocktail that I got in Miyakojima. The bartender (who’s also the guitarist for the live show) was super knowledgeable about drinks and told me about how the most famous craft cola is Iyashi Cola so I’ll definitely keep an eye out for that.
Honestly I was so comfortable between the music, drinks, ambiance, and a shitton of bottles that kept my unmedicated ass distracted, that I didn’t even try too hard to be social. I was vibin’ all the way through.
The live show itself was super fun too.
I called it a day kinda early since I got stuff to do tomorrow, but I definitely feel compelled to drop by again later.
Of course, after returning, as it often happens, I was a bit of a mess mentally.
I’ve come to very reluctantly accept that I’m like this. The best comparison I’ve been able to draw is that I’ve got a lot of “emotional sediment”. Basically I’m aware I’m an emotional person but most of the time those emotions are settled on the bottom of my heart, so whenever shit happens it’s like it got stirred up.
Because I’ve noticed that when it gets stirred up, it’s every emotion acting up instead of just a specific one.
It was a good day on the whole though.