Today’s deck is The Demon Posessed Tarot.
Despite the ominous name it’s just a Goetia deck. Cool as a thing but honestly really hard to parse since it’s just the goetia with specific cards assigned to each.
Today’s reading basically says “Go forth! Chase those opportunities you’ve work so hard for!”
If you’ll allow me, I’m gonna get really spiritual for a moment, but rest assured it’s related to today in general. I warn because I know this is one of those topics that’s sensitive for others in a myriad ways and I just wanna clarify that I’m not preaching, just sharing.
You see, I’ve always been a very spiritual person, I would’ve been religious if I wasn’t also the kind that hates being told what to do to a borderland petulant extent… though that said, being raised catholic does mean I kinda instinctively edge towards that side of things (eg: making the sign of the cross once something bad has passed or whenever I leave the house for a couple of days).
I don’t know if there’s a God, but if you asked me what I believe in, I truly believe everything happens for a reason. Maybe it’s just the writer brain compunding on top of the basic pattern-seeking brain humans have, but “everything happens for a reason” has always been the thing that I feel at the core of my being. Mind you I’m not saying “everything happens for a good reason”, just “a reason”. Let’s not get into the topic of God allowing evil, smarter people than me have argued about that for years with different very compelling opinions and I’m also not qualified to talk about it since despite my own struggles I’ve thankfully never faced the ugliest side of humanity and I don’t wanna be like the nepo baby that starts writing about communism.
Now, with this out of the way… and this is less a deep belief and more of an opinion, I’m of the mind that if there’s a God and said God is going to intervene in the world, it’s gonna be within the framework he created. While tales of the seas parting and a big foot smiting your foes are nice, I find the tales of “normal things happening at the right time” to be more exciting.
I’m always reminded of this one church I went to with my family on… Margarita I think it was? The man doing the tour of it was talking about how he became devout because he was “on the wrong path of life” and one day it caught up with him and had two guys pointing guns at his head and both guys’ guns malfunctioned when they were about to shoot.
No wait yeah, it was Margarita. I remember now because on the way back I bought a bootleg DVD of Lucario and the Mystery of Mew that I couldn’t watch until I got back home.
This preamble will make sense in a moment, there’s a point I’m gonna get to rather than just talking about this sort of thing for the heck of it.
So I woke up today in ways I didn’t expect, by which I mean that despite all the juggling of heavy books and squatting all over the place I didn’t wake up sore, I woke up with a migraine.
I was listless for a long while and it was one of those days where I didn’t know what to even eat and Dear God I needed food, so I went to the station, got through the train gates, and ate at Kamakura because… no clue, noodles fill faster I guess.
Having eaten I realized that I HAD crossed the gates so I might as well go… somewhere and low energy as I was, I figured I’d check mouses on Yodobashi since I’ve been meaning to change mine. The plastic near the thumb area is peeling off and the wheel has a lot of gunk.
While in the area there was a group of kids, one of those where it’s clearly a bunch of high school students that went “hey let’s all hang out at Yodobashi later!”. One of them was in one of the Gamer Test Machines when a bunch of others run to him to tell him they’re going to the elevator.
Someone’s phone falls, it’s in a case made to look like it has cat ears, I see this happen, I assume they’ll realize and pick it up, but they go and run to the elevator not noticing so here goes the 31 year old gaijin, running behind a group of teenagers going “ねえさん！おい！ねえさん！！” and they finally pay enough attention to me to realize that I’m trying to give them their phone back.
Did I tell you I had a migraine still? Because I did which means more than proud I was really annoyed at these kids. But as I made my way back I started to think about it for a moment (and some of you will see my point by now before I say it).
Me waking up with a migraine that makes me skip meals, think of Kamakura specifically, deciding to go to Yodobashi and being there at the right time to see this kid’s phone fall. And like, this isn’t a simple “left phone at restaurant” scenario, we’re talking the phone falling on the floor of a department store and then they go down an elevator.
Someone or something thought about saving that kid today the experience of losing their phone and saving their parents the money of getting a new phone, and I was a cog in that machine for the briefest of moments.
There’s really not much else to say today because, again, migraine. Just a bunch of half-started tasks before I gave up and went to bed.