Today’s deck is the Rackham Tarot.
Something something GBF joke. Apparently Arthur Rackham was a books illustrator from England so this is one of those decks that’s half gallery, pretty cool.
Today’s reading is calling me out on being stubborn with forging bonds… or is it about how I have a tendency to expect bonding and then end up closed off just as a caution.
Hmm…
I’m down bad, but like… in a way that’s even below the usual down bad-ness.
Dieselmine released their latest game. It’s part of their summer vacation series which some of you might’ve seen. They even made a short animation for it.
But the new one, while following the same formula is instead focused on a couple of siblings on a remote island (as opposed to more nondescript countryside).
The game is good, really good. I actually wanna highlight the fact that it oozes a care for the girls and their personalities to the point that each of their rooms is totally different.
Like, not just the decoration and the bed positions. One has not-Godzilla and likes to pickle stuff while the other is neater but also because she’s the one that takes care of the Ryokan they live in you can kinda tell she spends less time in her room.
Game is good. While it had a bit too much downtime sometimes, there’s enough details that make you want to explore other areas. For example, in the middle of the playthrough an old couple and a blonde foreigner with massive tits that gets no scenes why must you hurt me like this I’m gonna scream also stay in the Ryokan and you can miss when they arrive or when they leave but they’re nonetheless in the background.
So you might think that the part about me being down bad is that a game about two big titty sisters pampering you would make me act up but no.
Instead it got me when I saw this.
I’ve seen so many roads like this one.
I NEED a road like this one.
I need to get lost in the countryside for 5 days lamenting that the closest conbini is 15 minutes by car and I should’ve packed snacks as a precaution.
Then it gets to a cave and the game is like “oh you can have hot steamy sex in this cave” but all I think is…
I NEED A CAVE LIKE THAT BADLY. I WANT TO FUCK UP MY ANKLES AND HURT MY KNEES TRYING TO GET COOL SHOTS.
I know I’ve had cabin fever of sorts… but I didn’t expect this game of all things to make me so keenly aware of it.
By the time I finished playing it was around midday and I have the dentist appointment. It’s my hygienecist’s last day at work before a maternity leave so I decided to print one of my photos (the moons ones from last month) as a gift.
Then I prepped Halloumi for some photos and went out. I left DQ Walk running and made it to my first LVL70 party. Now I gotta level up a second party which should be marginally easier since LVL70 gives you the “10% EXP for jobs below LVL90” bonus.
The whole thing was routine aside from the whole “it’s your last day” bit.
I’m the kind that likes giving things to people, but that dentist office is kinda special because it’s marked so much of the stuff that’s happened to me here in Japan.
It’s seen me at my lowest, my most scared (one of my biggest fears was needing to have a procedure while living alone and I had to face that when they removed one of my wisdom teeth), they saw when I was trying to rediscover myself and dressed in a lot of pink, they saw me when I was settling down a bit more.
My teeth are as unrecognizable as I was compared to that period. Also, this is the second time the person assigned to me changed, but I didn’t catch last time it happened, so I figured I should mark the ocassion this time.
Once done, I decided to look for photo spots and it didn’t take me long to find one. I’ve had my eye on it for forever but there was always some activity using that space specifically.
GOD I could feel the rust of not going out for a while. I’m actually saving you the many attempts at finding the proper camera settings.
I know how to adjust the exposure and all that theoretically, but a lot of it is by muscle memory, like, in the moment I don’t think “the flash is reflecting too hard, reduce the ISO”, it’s more like “it looks like this, press this button”.
Once the settings were properly found I just adjusted the pose a little bit. I wanted to try something where her face is hidden by the angle but ended up actually finding an even better angle in general, go figure.
After a quick breather and stopping because there was a family with a child nearby, I took these ones in a different spot.
These turned out great, but in the moment I had a different idea, a different pose in mind, so I felt kinda bleh that I couldn’t fully achieve it.
On a pure theory level I realized the pose wouldn’t really shine through with THIS outfit so I decided to focus on the hidden face bit from earlier. I still wanna test with some figure the pose I have in mind because maybe the problem is that at this point it’s more idea than something tangible.
I really like the way her tits look in the whole set. Very shapely, very well defined with the shadows and stuff.
One last set. Yes, that’s very vaguely Kamen Rider W’s pose. Originally it was pointing more directly, but I changed the arm so it looked more casual. Then I lowered the hand a little bit.
Then a wind blew and the fedora ALMOST fell into a fountain but I decided to take a couple of shots before putting the hat back on and I’ll be damned it ALMOST looks like I used a tripod or something like that.
By the end of it I was feeling good, I was feeling energized. Almost like I finally engaged with the coping mechanism I have for stress or something like that.
And thankfully the day had one last nice surprise.
I picked some McDonald’s takeout on the way back, and when I finally sit down to eat…
THEY GAVE ME A NORMAL STRAW INSTEAD OF A BULLSHIT PAPER ONE.