Today’s deck is the Jungian Tarot.
Bit of a redundant thing since the most mainstream school of thought about Tarot IS Jungian by default. The main thing I dislike is that the deck doesn’t have the cards labeled. The proportions are also weird, it’s like a normal playing card deck but scaled up.
Today’s reading basically invites to think about the regrets brought forth by creative limitations. Thank you for the invitation but I live that every day of my life.
That’s The Magician by the way. See what I mean with the cards not being labeled? I commend the goal to rethink the symbolism of the cards but even the most up-its-ass decks out there tend to label which card is which.
Today was going to be a “walk back and forth way too much” sort of day.
First, go to Japanese lesson, then go back and go to the chiropractor, and finally go back to the earlier place and go get my meds.
It all went without a hitch… EXCEPT for the meds part.
My doctor was absent from the clinic today meaning I couldn’t get a refill…. despite the fact that this was supposed to be the quick sort of appointment because I’ve been stable for long enough that I don’t need a checkup.
I can survive without the ADHD meds, I did for 27 years of my life after all… I also required about two years afterwards to take proper stock of all the damage that an unmedicated life had done in terms of habits and life in general.
So I’d rather take it easy and get back into the rhythm of the things after I solve that. It’s only a couple of days, thankfully. Last few times I had to go on unmedicated were either one week or one month and that’s when the going gets really rough.
Regardless of that, I actually killed time going the long way around to the clinic and noticed a bunch of places I hadn’t seen before. It’s kinda crazy how despite exploring so much since moving in there’s still so many corners I’m not familiar with.
I remember seeing Christmas decorations the first couple of years made me really melancholic and sad, but not so much nowadays for some reason.
By the way, I have this personal game of “let’s see how long I last until I hear Last Christmas out in the open.”
The key to win is that if you always have your headphones you don’t listen to the song and it doesn’t count.
After a 2 or so hours nap that shifted my sleep schedule even further, I just tuned out playing some DLsite games. Of note is H?英知?探求性質! by 愚痴ヲタ畑.
If I had to describe it, it’s basically a story about a scientist that becomes a detective by necessity. There’s a cool mechanic where you find keywords and by combining them you get results that you can turn into other stuff.
The coolest thing though, is that this game has a great idea for a Virgin Run.
For those blissfully unaware, these sorts of games usually (though not always) include an option where the main character can remain a virgin but things are harder.
It’s honestly super arbitrary most of the time to the point it ends up feeling like one of those “can you beat minecraft without the allegations thrown your way” challenges… but you CAN.
In this one, however, it does feel integrated into the flow of the game. For example if you would rather remain a virgin through to the end certain sections trying to get through the weird sex cult of the plot become pseudo stealth missions, but if you don’t care you can just stroll in and put up with all the harassment.
There’s this other game I played AGES ago called Whatever (no, really) where the main character was also a “detective” and while you COULD try and solve things the normal way, you could also fuck a character and get the answer. So the Virgin Run is, again, a difficulty mode that isn’t just “grind like crazy without losing once”.
Not much else to talk about aside from seeing Madoka Higuchi in Office Worker clothes at the station and feeling the cold hand of Mahjong reach out to me.
I’m gonna take it easy the next couple of days and just ride off the days without meds. I’ll probably be sleepy most of it anyways.