Night for day

Today’s deck is the Everyday Tarot.

It’s produced by the same people that make Biddy Tarot and I gotta say, I love the minimalistic look. It’s minimal but for the sake of enhancing legibility.

The readings lately have all been talking about upcoming change and letting go of concerns/fear, and today’s was so blunt about it that I’m almost optimistic I’m gonna get more than one year of Visa this time around.

Almost.

THIS is a knoife

Today’s Warhammer Preorder was for a new Kill Team set. It reminded me that I tend to get really into the mood of painting minis when the weather gets colder.

I woke up properly at I wanna say… 5PM or so? No acid reflux or anything today thankfully. I actually really like waking up at around that time because everything feels so quiet. Which is saying something because my apartment’s noise isolation isn’t half bad (concrete walls and such).

I went to Yodobashi Camera to get Harami Steak. I used to have a really good aged Harami place in Shin Osaka station but they closed down around May. That place, Roman-tei, was special to me because it was my first “local find” my first “oh this is cool, I gotta bring others here” restaurant.

It was replaced with a Hamburg Steak place that’s not… good. And it’s a lot if I say it’s not good because I LOVE hamburg steak. But this one uses pasta for the carb in the dish and I was burping pasta breath for the whole day afterwards.

At least during the last day the owner of the restaurant recognized me and chatted with me for a bit.

Between that and a bunch of renovations that have been happening because of next year’s World Fair, I was thinking how much of a bummer it is that so many things are changing or being torn down, but then I remember that I’ve been living here for six years. Six years is already a lot and that’s not counting however long things existed there before I arrived.

Lately I’ve been praised a lot by people. While I can gladly say that it’s not an unheard of thing to happen, it feels extra meaningful when I’m sore from all the stress and whatnot.

By the way, whenever I hype myself up or talk about being slighted I end up speaking in third person for some reason, I’ve tried to fix that though, and I bring it up mainly because I had to rewrite what I was writing since I was typing it in third person.

Anyway, one was my dad praising me for how I have a “gift” for helping others, and another was X (no I did not run out of alphabet letters to refer to friends by), who recently moved to the US and I gave a bit of… I wouldn’t even call it advice, more like my two cents on her stress of just moving, plus some of my own experiences on the matter and she thanked me while commenting how much she admires me for how I moved to Japan and stuff.

None of this is new, mind you. I’m as grateful for those words then as I am now, but they definitely hit different when you feel like a dry leaf about to crumble.

I was playing this one game today and here’s a fun fact about me: I tend to hack the save files of a bunch of RPG Maker games and such that I play because I KNOW how they try to inflate the playtime design-wise.

Anyway, I bring it up because one tendency I’ve noticed lately is that there’s a lot of them that don’t use RPGMaker’s “Gold” field for money and instead save the money on a variable or something else.

I can think of so many reasons why this is, but I feel like any I can think of is ultimately more complex than whatever mundane reason informs it all.

As I prepare to sleep, the weather is awful and the wind is blowing so hard you can hear it whistle.

Very few things make me afraid, but all my life the sound of strong wind or the sight of wind blowing things really hard tends to be the most surefire way to make me turn into a baby.

Oh, also, this is the 31st entry, so this is officially the longest I’ve journaled uninterrupted ever.

Wild.



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