Today’s deck is Todd Alcott’s Horror Tarot.
This is the third deck of theirs I have and they’re all amazing. So much so that I felt compelled to find SOME way to message him to tell him how awesome they were.
Today’s reading seems to be asking “is there something you’ve been keeping to yourself about others at work?” And I mean the answer is “Yes, always”, but it’s worth pointing out that if I have any grievances I haven’t made evident by just being myself I tend to work around them because the alternative is to suddenly tell someone some random grievance when things are seemingly fine and… that’s not fun, I’ve been on the recieving end of that too many times.
You know, lately I’ve been feeling… I guess “Paranoid” for lack of a better word? It’s not even paranoia about something specific, it’s just this general sense that something’s gonna blow up, that I’m forgetting… something.
For example, I wake up worried that my power or water is gonna be cut off. I actually had some solicitor offering me some coating or another for the house, they even asked me if I had kids and I could see in his eyes the “oh this is a lost sale” when I told him “no” and then I kinda spent the rest of the day in a sort of “man what if he was scouting for some shady group and me saying I had no kids made me a target”.
At that point I just had to… take a walk or something. Which I did figuring I’d kill time before Japanese lesson.
In the midst of it I remembered I had to check on the pension office to pay some overdue late penalties… and decided to tell our producer to call them for me.
Why they need a call instead of just sending the bill like they normally do is beyond me.
Everything was crowded to kingdom come and that’s when I remembered that it’s Obon so everyone’s out doing stuff.
For better or worse that bout of weird paranoia was the only noteworthy thing in the day. To be honest it might just be that everything’s fine for a change and I’m not used to it.
Just gotta learn to relax… somehow. Relaxing is hard, man.