Today’s deck is Christina Ricci’s Cat Full of Spiders Tarot.
I’m gonna be honest, the first thing I thought was “wasn’t that the broad that hung out with Paris Hilton?”. That was Nicole Ricchie. Christina Ricci played Wednesday in the 90s Addams Family and stuff.
She’s done a lot, and when I saw a proper pic I was like “OH, her, yeah…” but can’t say she’s that big of a name within my brain.
This deck is supposed to be a “fan deck” celebrating her career and such but it has a key problem… they can’t really use characters that are from a bunch of copyright holders, so the deck is basically trusting you to Know.
And I do not Know, sadly.
For today’s reading we have the Nine of Wands, a card that tends to evoke the idea of someone tired after a struggle, so Reversed it can mean that the struggle is maybe being too much.
Why is the struggle too much? A Reversed Eight of Swords suggests internal limitations (as opposed to external ones with the Upright form) and a Three of Wands suggests lack of initiative.
In other words: “If the going feels tough, consider that maybe you’re gimping yourself without realizing”.
Hmmm…
By the way, another deck came with this Affirmations Coaster and while I appreciate when shops add bonuses for the heck of it (an order of Nikke playmats I made came with a bunch of free acrylic chibis as compliment), the whole Affirmations Trend leaves me a little bit annoyed.
It’s not that I think it’s silly, mind you. This blog is literally half Tarot blog, why would I think that. No, the reason is that I grew up in a very new age-y sort of environment (not really my home, mind you). I was called “indigo child” when that was a thing and then “crystal child” when THAT was a thing and let me tell you there’s nothing more frustrating than having problems fitting in with other kids, doing your darnedest, and having more labels put on you that try to put you in a category of your own.
Anyway, the school where I went to from third grade until graduating high school had its own set of new age programs that included stuff like mental gymnastics and Neurolinguistic Programming (the actual principle, not the one PUAs claim to use), I also remember watching The Secret on like 7th or 8th grade at the school’s library.
Affirmations aren’t a new thing, they’re actually part of the whole NLP principle of stuff. We had exercise books where the borders of the page would have “I’m smart, I’m valued, I’m loved” and so on in the border and we were asked to color that in.
So Affirmations make me groan the same way that a kid that was made to read Catcher in the Rye in school might groan upon seeing the book elsewhere.
Mind you, despite the Annoyance I’m so grateful to the family that runs that school. My family didn’t have to pay a cent for that tuition (my dad’s a retired music teacher) and to this day they still remember me fondly.
Also for as much as New Age Stuff might make me groan, who’s to say how I would’ve turned out (creatively or otherwise) without it?
Mood’s not the best today, I’ve been worse even this month but this just feels like one of those “ride the day out” sorts of days. The biggest sign of it is that I do feel chafed by eternal grievances, but not enough to vent them on writing today. This isn’t a pressure boiler about to explode, this is more like… a shallow pond on a summer day, and those at least evaporate quickly.
Considering it’s near the end of the month, the fabled Man Period might be hitting slightly earlier than usual and the more months that pass the more I’m starting to believe it might be a thing on some level.
The main focus of today is catching up with with a bunch of work-related stuff, but because I woke up at like 2PM or so I’ve decided instead to leave all the prep set so that I can just do everything in one go tomorrow.
For example, I have to send my accountant physical receipts to her office, so aside from making sure the envelope is in my backpack come tomorrow, I’m taking the chance to also mail some extra things.
The main extra element at play is that I haven’t gotten my new insurance card and the old one I got while I waited for my Visa already expired. This is a problem because next week, right after I come back from my trip, I gotta go get my ADHD meds.
So for tomorrow’s routing I have to also add dropping by the municipality and getting my new insurance card or at least seeing what the problem might’ve been there.
“But Fer, you own a company. Don’t you have company insurance?” That’s… a long tale for a slower day. The short of it is that whatever you think “normal process” might entail was not something I did, for… numerous complicated reasons.
After ruminating about it while doing chores and errands, the foul mood might be a pang of loneliness. Maybe, still wondering about it.
I’m less scared of foul moods nowadays since I know they’ll eventually pass, but I still consider it important to analyze yourself and try to pinpoint what you’re feeling and why you’re feeling.
The foul mood will eventually come anyways, but knowing how or why it happens makes it less scary.
There’s really not much novelty today though. I did decide on going to Nagano for New Year’s, though (I don’t like being at home in New Year’s or I’ll sulk… in no small part from memories of the 2020 New Year’s I talked about a few days ago).
I did also wonder if I’d be able to get into a pace of daily drawing like how I’ve kept up the blog and the tarot daily for a while now.