Don’t end because it cry, happen because it happy.
Today’s reading is indicating inner struggle… with a lack of struggle. In my defense, I’m not used to my brain cooperating, or at the very least with my brain NOT being as antagonic.
As if to complete a hypothetical set, the thing that woke me up today specifically was the cold.
The weather has been extreme in the sense that I wake up and it’s chilly, then in midday is hot and then back at night it’s chilly again, so I woke up and it was like 7 degrees.
I had everything packed, so I ran a quick check through the room before getting my luggage down bit by bit.
I checked out and I was able to leave my luggage in the lobby while I did a couple of things unburdened, chief among them getting the ticket for the train.
I managed to get there the moment the window opened which was nice. A ride back at like 9AM meant I’d arrive at around midday and have a decent chunk of the day ahead of me.
The ride went shockingly smooth and I didn’t even have to doze off. Going through a new Down The Rabbit Hole video definitely helped going through it.
I did a small mental evaluation of how this trip went and I’d say on the whole it was a success!
I walked a lot, explored new areas, bathed in hot springs, ate some new food, got souvenirs, took a lot of photos, and photos with the girls too!
I need this sort of mental evaluation to recenter myself because it’s very easy to fall into a trapping where I only think about the stuff I DIDN’T do. The pics with Aurora I didn’t take, the journaling I didn’t do, and so on and so forth…
One particular detail that’s good but in a way where I’m wary (think: “the cat sure has been quiet” sort of wary) is that the pangs of loneliness, of “man, I wish I had someone to share this all with” wasn’t there. Extra noteworthy because there were a LOT of couples in the area and whatnot.
It has me wary because usually I tend to address my mental hangups methodically, point by point… but sometimes something just kinda fixes itself and it scares me because I don’t know what solved it and if it happens again I might not know how to address it.
Anyway, I made it back and it was good enough time that I figured I could go and develop the two film rolls I finished while out… after unwinding and especially after showering.
Not like I didn’t bathe while on the trip but I forgot my hair treatment and I couldn’t stand how my hair was feeling.
I left the films at the shop and I had about two hours to kill so I had Linner (Like Brunch, but after Lunch), checked LOFT, faffed about for a while and time flew shockingly fast all in all.
Got the photos and while I didn’t properly sit to check them today they looked good at a glance.
I then continued the slightly annoying trend I’ve been in and fell asleep at like 9PM only to wake up at 1AM. I figured I could do a quick Uma Musume post since reading a lot tends to make me sleepy when my meds have worn off.
It worked, so hey…