Today’s deck is the Tarot of the Thousand and One Nights.
I’m assuming these are unrelated illustrations being assigned to cards which is its own can of worms, but the deck is nice!
Today’s reading is advising that letting bygones be bygones is a safe way to ensure inner prosperity.
Very welcome reminder for a spiteful bitch such as I.
Guess whose Sleep Paralysis Demon decided to visit again!!! For those just tuning in, I sometimes get episodes of sleep paralysis that result in me seeing something I’ve dubbed The Shadow Creature, a humanoid sillhouette that looks basically made of shadows.
The visit this time was interesting though.
So I have this dream where I’m in the lobby of my building opening the door to my apartment and I see a Sadako-like girl walk past me and think “ah shit, this brat is gonna want to spook me” so I turn around and go “BLAAAAH!!” at her which upsets her and she continues walking down the hallway.
I return my attention to the door but thing “Wait, the brat probablt wants to retaliate now” so I turn to that side of the hallway…
That’s when I wake up and I see this… THING near the door to my bedroom. The best way I can describe it is that it was an amalgamation of… analog horror monsters, the kind where they’re not grotesque but there’s some fucky distortion going on with their face.
It had a yellow rain coat, a lamp in his right hand, and stretched his left hand forwards as if to grab me. More importantlyhowever, it didn’t have a single face. When I say it was an amalgamation I mean that it started shifting across parodies of the human form in a way that reminded of the Marvel movies intro with the pages flipping through.
By now I’m screaming like one does in a nightmare… and then my voice actually physically comes out of my mouth and that basically awakes the rest of my body so I stand up because I’m lucid enough despite the fear section of my brain flaring up to be curious as to what the fuck that thing would be like up close.
So I manage to get out of bed and the creature… basically blends into a nearby shelf and now I’m back in the normal world. But when I say it blended I mean it blended, it was like if you made an Animorph’s cover between that thing and my shelf. It was legit rad.
After making a quick piss pass (I was awake and up anyways) I go back to bed and wait for my heart to stop racing be it from the fear or the exertion.
I sat down chanting the way I’ve started kinda doing whenever I feel sick while holding onto memories of family and pets to shield me from the creature. I know perfectly it’s not “rational”, but something I’ve learned after feeling haunted in Ise last year is that being irrational is actually the best way to calm the irrational mind. The rational mind might make the most compelling argument but guess what? The irraitonal brain speaks French and has no clue what the putain was said to it.
Though now that I think about it, it wasn’t really made out of shadows. In fact, The Shadow Creature never makes like… active efforts to spook me? It is spooky, but I always see it just standing there, it never tries to go OOGA BOOGA BOOGA.
Perhaps my error was to bully the Sadako-like girl? But How could I not when I’m sure my brain made her like the one Shikizoku draws…
Nightmares aside, the day was normal otherwise, though the nightmare fucked up my sleep schedule since I fell asleep a long while later.
I did go to Evil at night, though. I had a LOT of catching up to do.
It was a relatively slow day, but near midnight a Chinese student came in. One fun bit was seeing him pronounce Candle as “Ken-dle” and I explained that “Can” is pronounced “Kahn” but if it’s as in to do then it becomes more like “Ken” and that’s probably where the mixup happened and I also had to stop myself from screaming into a pillow because English is such a nonsense language.
MuvLuv had it right, English can eat shit.