Today’s deck is the Disney Villains Tarot Deck.
It’s too concerned with OH REMEMBER THIS CHARACTER??? DON’T THINK WE FORGOT ABOUT THIS CHARACTER!!! and the meaning feels lost in service to that. And that’s not even counting how the backs aren’t symmetrical.
The best part of it was seeing Kronk as soon as I open it, but HE’S NOT EVEN A VILLAIN SO THE ONE THING THAT BROUGHT ME JOY GOES AGAINST WHAT THIS DECK IS ABOUT.
Also, man. I knew Disney villains were formulaic, but browsing the deck and feeling in real time my brain mushing them all together as “here’s the soft-spoken bastard” “here’s the old bitch” “here’s the queer-coded one” “here’s another soft-spoken bastard” “here’s another old bitch” etc etc etc really puits things into perspective.
Anyway, the reading…
Refusal to an internal change, personal definition of success, exhaustion… That doesn’t sound right. However, if we see the Eight of Wands as too much movement (where the upright version means something more like “things sprouting quickly and suddenly”), then it would make more sense and be more fitting as “you’re getting exhausted from all the internal realignment”.
Which is also more fitting considering what you can see on this blog alone, for example.
Today I woke up at almost 2am, and I had a super interesting dream. It was another “oh hey, I have a girlfriend now” type of dream which is already curious because what is it with trips and those dreams kicking in (probably a wish to have someone to share the trips with maybe?) but here’s the most curious part to me…
The girlfriend in this dream wasn’t the girl I liked in high school, but the girl I liked in elementary school instead.
Beyond that, I think the most interesting part of the dream was that it involved me introducing the literal dream girl to my parents all full of pride.
You know, the funny thing is that I’m not really in a rush to be in a relationship. Would it be nice? Absolutely, beyond any doubt, I know for a fact I probably have TOO much affection to give sometimes. But I’m not in a HURRY, as in I prefer to come across the right person at the right time rather than just looking actively for that sort of thing.
Thinking about it, seeing that one couple in the shinkansen probably left that in my brain.
I also woke up thinking about the whole concept of a “crush” and how distant it feels now. And while I do have my own problems with the idea of romance (feeling unworthy of such a thing for most of my life, plus the fact that soializing already incurs a certain amount of effort for me so trying to make “a move” on purpose feels exhausting), I think the main thing is that I’ve just learned to Love in a general enough way that if feelings just so happen to evolve that way eventually that’s cool, but if not then just being near the other person makes me happy.
It also means that I have no way to know if my feelings for someone are any more special out of the gate, but that’s probably for the best.
I actually talked about this with N later and she brought up something interesting, namely the idea that being in places that aren’t famliar causes those dreams.
She might be onto something, because the period where I dreamt a lot with my high school crush WAS after I moved to Japan.
Anyway…
I woke up to my immigration lawyer giving me a paper that I needed to sign, and since I didn’t feel like repeating the weird Adobe fiasco from when I was in Aomori, I took an alternative that, honestly, I shopuld’ve taken before.
The first step was to register in the Family Mart net printing service thingy. Once registered, I uploaded the file to it.
Then, while buying other odd ends I was missing, I got a pen, printed the document, and signed it.
THEN using a different service I scanned the signed document and sent it to my phone, where I then sent it to the lawyer.
Couple of extra steps because of first time setup and way less painful than dealing with Adobe.
It’s conveniences like that that make me love this country enough to put up with the immigration bullshit.
Apparently they’ll submit the papers for me, so that’s one problem off my back…
…
…maybe that’s what yesterday’s tarot reading was about?
The weather seemed like it was gonna be nice today, so my plan was as follows: Go to TGS to get the badge and then go around the Makuhari taking photos with the girls.
First thing I noticed was that I forgot my flash back home. I was actually planning to get a new one (partially because I want to try tethering multiple ones for pics, partially because my current one had an error where I had to unlock and then lock again after it said “unavailable accesory” or something) so I put an order in Yodobashi Camera Akiba.
I made a quick stop at Akihabara and I took the chance to get some paper frames for some photos I brought for friends. Got the flash and headed to Kaihin Makuhari.
I was sitting near a guy that kept chewing gum with his mouth half open and I had to deal with the smell of mint in breath the whole way. At least I got into the express.
Also I kept reading Romance of Three Kingdoms on the way. Wang Yun is a legend holy shit.
Finally arrived in Chiba and this páth is tied to some of my most precious meories of coming to Japan, so this specific path always brightens my mood a little bit.
Also, shout outs to the stylish girl taking selfies near the Shadow The Hedgehog posters, she even had an Eggman plushie on her backpack.
My mood kinda soured when I thought I had to make this line to enter. Especially because I had a bunch of Brazillians talking loudly behind me.
No, the problem wasn’t that they were Brazillian, it was the fact that they positioned themselves in a way where they were basically surrounding me (not on purpose mind you) and to make matters worse they conversation wasn’t even interesting!
At least speak about non banal matters to make standing in line fun, come on.
But I was just dumb. It was the wrong line.
Once inside the event it was nice! The problem was that I didn’t actually intend to stay inside. So why did I stay nonetheless? Because I remembered I had one meeting today. It wasn’t a formal matter, more of a “hey, we’re all in the event we might as well” sort of situation. But still.
After that, I went with a friend (let’s call him T, I think I’ve brought him up before) to get food. Originally we intended to go to Tony Roma’s but turns out they close between 3PM and 5PM, so we went to a Thai food place.
It was good! But I had two lies: The first is that the noodles look nothing like the pic ion the menu, ad the second is that the menu said it had no spicy and guess what, it had.
Mind you this isn’t even saying it’s bad. It was not! It was quite good and I was annoyed precisely because I couldn’t eat more on the grounds of being a little bitch that can’t take the heat.
I picked some Karaage-kun at the station and then went to sleep.
Not a bad day overall.
Oh yeah, I was also remembering that yesterday on the station someone asked me if I was American, I told him I was South American, and then he told me I was very kind.
I assume it was from how I tried to hold the elevator door open for someone else??? What does being American have to do with it????
Regardless, thank you for the kind words, stranger.
Also, turns out I stayed in this same hotel in 2022 not 2021, so it was definitely for a doll event in the Big Sight. The first one I ever went to, probably.