Today’s deck was the Alice in Wonderland Tarot.
Definitely a bit better than the one from yesterday, but not only aren’t the backs symmetrical, but the booklet doesn’t tell you what suit corresponds to which. I had to look for meaning comparisons to decipher that Hedgehogs are Pentacles… because they’re cicular I guess.
Man, it’s so annoying to see the decks with asymmetrical backs because they feel like they were made by people that don’t actually use those cards, because the moment you did you’d notice.
In fact, I was so annoyed that I decided to instead do today’s reading with my carry-on deck, the Everyday Tarot in this case.
Not only was the reading clearer, it even had a similar “all of a same suit going down” element which was freaky to see it happen twice, especially because the Everyday Tarot one had been shuffled more often.
“You feel like you lost an opportunity, you refuse to see what’s being offered in front of you. In truth you shopuld be instead grateful for what’s in front of you”.
The timing of this reading as I was annoyed that my visa paperwork didn’t let me have a project prototype in time for TGS is…
It’s one hell of a timing, let me tell you.
I woke up at 2AM and I gotta say… this has to be the first hotel I’ve been in with unironically, legitimately good pillows.
When the sun came out. little bit I went out to take pics with Mina and Mana. The Mina ones came well but I wasn’t happy with the Mana ones. I adjusted the position of her eyes and went out again and the results were better the next time around.
The mnemonic to remember them is that Mina is Mini Chest and Mana is Maxi Chest.
They call themselves twins, but Mina is actually Mana’s vampire ancestor who recently woke back up. Though Mina is the one that believes herself as the more dominant one in the relationship, Mana constantly and eagerly overpowers her at every turn.
I headed out to TGS relatively late because I didn’t have much to do today, but I did have one thing occupying my mind that I NEEDED to do.
There’s a Tony Roma’s ner the Makuhari Messe and after finding it last year and being closed yesterday, I HAD to go.
I’ve told this tory to friends before, but in Venezuela being able to go to Tony Roma’s was a sign that you were very affluent. The reason is that it was a restaurant promotedon cable! And it was on the more affluent areas of the country.
Also the ribs are just good man, dunno what to tell you.
Today the event felt different in a good way.
To be fair yesterday I wasn’t thinking about entering the event and was carrying more weight as a result, but still.
Yesterday I felt like the event didn’t feel as special anymore, but it was actually more the fact that it felt different from before.
Before, TGS was a validation of my craft, a sign that I “made it” as it were. But my path in life has been an effort to decouple my value as a person from my value at work. And I guess it got to a specific tipping point this year.
Hell, while chatting with a friend later that night the topic of value through work came up and he said, completely unprompted by me “Well, you don’t anymore, but” which prompted me to reply “I mean, it got punched out of me, yeah”.
Point being that the feeling got validated the same day.
The thing is, TGS is still cool as hell and I still like games, so after one day of readjusting my expectations today felt even better.
I stayed after closing and went to an Izakaya with a bunch of friends. It was a fun time. Also the Izakaya served drinks SO FAST after you ordered them.
A minor thing that had crossed my mind was seeing all the Cosplayers in booths and whatnot and feeling this weird pang of… unapproachability?
It was a weird thing to even think about in that moment. For one I know a LOT of cosplayers and even chat often with a few of them. And another thing is that I didn’t even intend to “approach” any of said cosplayers at the event to begin with.
It just feels like it was a random stray synapse, like the part of my brain obsessed with the fact that I’m “unworthy” of affection saw hot girls in the most polished for photoshoots environment and went “yeah this kind of thing is out of my reach…”.
I’ve been asked why I refer to my brain in third person, and it’s because of shit like this.
Uncooperative bastard.
In that same line of thinking, near the end of the event I remember seeing a Nikke cosplayer (from the ones that are in the booth) going out of… I think it was one of the changing areas or something? By the time I see her she’s walking with some guy.
I don’t need to explain where my brain went, but I immediately pulled back like “you’re overthinking it, he was probably just escorting her, God knows what weirdo she might come across while dressed as a Nikke girl”.
Except… at around that same time, many other cosplayers poured out of that general area. Quite a few of them were on their own, actually.
I’m overthinking it. I’m overthinking it…
Meanwhile, my family keeps terrorizing me by sending pictures of babies on the family chat.
I suspect the older I get, the lower my tolerance will be.