Today’s deck is the Nomad Soul Warrior Tarot
It’s good! Though it gives me this vibe of “these are all someone’s blorbos. Maybe they are? A card inside promoted a book…
Today’s reading definitely reflects today’s introspective mood.
Weather is ass today, but there’s a twist: My mood is also ass!
I don’t quite feel like writing about it, though not from any aversion but more from a combination of it not eating me from the inside so hard I feel like vocalizing it, and just not having the energy to put the thoughts into words.
I’ll take that as a victory though. There’s an irony in emotions being crappy but being in a decent enough mental state where I’m like “Eh, there’s bigger priorities right now”.
Wanna know what improved my mood? Knife sharpening!
It’s nothing macabre. For starters there’s an element of physical activity improving mood just naturally. I should definitely consider scratching the gym itch if so.
Then there’s the simple satisfaction of completing a task.
And finally, there’s the point where I test the sharpness via the paper cutting test and laugh maniacally as the cheapo knives slice through it like butter.
I was confident enough that I even decided to resharpen the more expensive knives in my cupboard.
The main goal of the task was actually to get a better feel for the motion so I don’t grip the knife as hard and I believe I did by the end! I did notice my thumb was sorta kinda slightly sore, but that felt less grasp-related and more needing a better workspace.
I currently have a setup where I’ve got an adjustable whetstone thingy that I put on my kitchen sink and its current position isn’t the best.
Honestly, even the bad brain could be worse. If it was incited by external elements then sure, but when it’s more of a self-inflicted sort of thing I’ve learned to be patient and just let it all flow out.
Sometimes an off day is an off day and there’s not much you can do about that, and that’s fine.